D.O.N.E.

I find it odd that I have already registered for both Chicago and NYC, which take place in October and November and have not registered for the St. Louis Marathon, which takes place in April.  Hmm...maybe because in the back of my mind, I really do not want to run the St. Louis Marathon. 

I had a horrible run on Saturday.  Horrible.  The sad thing is, it started out fine.  I was able to get outside, which was great, but I think my mental game was off.  I was setting out to run 18 miles in a park by our house because the trail was cleared of snow.  Well, I should have known that running six, three mile loops was not going to happen.  Oh, did I mention that the wind started blowing like 30 mph?  I could figure out which direction it was blowing either.  It seemed that no matter which way I went, I was running into the wind. 

I decided to stop at 11.30 miles and drive home to go finish on the treadmill.  I ended up freaking out as soon as I walked inside our house, telling Ken how I suck and that I am a pansy, a baby, a whimp, and just need to suck it up and run.  Well guess what?  I decided right then that I was done for the day.  I whined a little more and Ken suggested that maybe I take a break from marathon training.  Take a break?  Really, not train for a marathon.  Is that even possible?

I thought about it, told myself to suck it up and that was that.  Then I really got to thinking.  I called my friend Susan and talked it over with her.  Guess what, I am d.o.n.e.  I am not going to run the St. Louis Marathon, I am going to continue to work on my speed and maintain a long run of 13 miles and just wait for Chicago.  I feel like such a baby for deciding not to run the marathon, but I know I really need to do what is best for me.  I always enjoy Fall training so much more and do not want to get burnt out on training before the real fun begins.